1am talk about fear and life

‘Many of them just couldn’t understand. Why would anyone need to take some quiet time to confront it’s own thoughts, to push away the dust of yesterday to have a better vision of tomorrow ? The obvious-for-me answer to that question was for many totally obscure and unknown. Living in a society where we spend our whole life running, this didn’t surprise me so much. We run, always faster and faster, never according to our self the right to stop and think. Aren’t we only running for our self ? Never stopping to avoid a confrontation with our own soul, are we scared to discover we are the monsters we’re afraid of ?’
[ Something I wrote for a project I’m currently working on]

What are you scared of ? When was the last time you stopped and consciously look your fears in the eyes ? Acknowledging them and maybe trying to understand what caused them, what was the root issue ?
When was the last time you just stopped and pondered quickly on your thoughts ?
In a world that rush more and more, we’re sadly less and less to actually take the time to witness our own thoughts, our own interiority, our own soul.

‘ To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all’ . [Oscar Wilde]

I know that I’m scared to not live. No, not afraid to die. In a way I’m not really afraid of death. Simply of not being alive before dying.
I’m afraid to simply exist, to go around as if I was a zombie.to go through life in a mist of sleep-walking-ness. To just go day after day and to not really create the life I want…

‘Remember, remember, this is now,and now, and now.Live it, feel it, cling to it. I want to become accurately aware of all I’ve taken for granted’ [ Sylvia Plath]

I’ve always thought that I’d rather have a short life where I’d feel insanely alive ,rather than a long life where I’d just wake up everyday to do the same thing, never really feeling like I even really woke up.

As I was talking to a friend though some time ago, I was wondering if anyone really is afraid of death itself, or is it always this fear of not having enough time ? not having enough time to create what we wish to ? To live what we want to live ?

I guess the ‘answer’ to all this would be to just simply : Be in the Now. Live unapologetically the life You wanna live. Dare being  Yourself.
Is it that easy really ? I think it is in concept,but that sometime we have to go through years of mental conditioning we have picked up from others and to de-cluster all this in a way. To really see clearer through our thoughts and mental patterns,to see what we really want […]and maybe that’s why it’s not always ‘easy’, but maybe in itself it is easy ,or at least simple : simply be yourself and live in a way that makes you happy.

Hmmm…Food for thoughts.

Seriously I often feel like I write and think that,but that yeah to do it in everyday life isn’t so easy and it takes some time ,that’s for sure. So yeps I’m still working on it all personally,and thinking it through, So maybe another post about that soon ?

Okay,enough 1am talk for today !
Vic’